Against The Wind

It seems like yesterday
But it was long ago
Janey was lovely, she was the queen of my nights
There in the darkness with the radio playing low

And the secrets that we shared
The mountains that we moved
Caught like a wildfire out of control
Till there was nothing left to burn and nothing left to prove

And I remember what she said to me
How she swore that it never would end
I remember how she held me oh so tight
Wish I didn’t know now what I didn’t know then

Against the wind
We were runnin’ against the wind
We were young and strong, we were runnin’
against the wind

And the years rolled slowly past
And I found myself alone
Surrounded by strangers I thought were my friends
I found myself further and further from my home

And I guess I lost my way
There were oh so many roads
I was living to run and running to live
Never worried about paying or even how much I owed

Moving eight miles a minute for months at a time
Breaking all of the rules that would bend
I began to find myself searchin’
Searching for shelter again and again

Against the wind
A little something against the wind
I found myself seeking shelter against the wind

Well those drifters days are past me now
I’ve got so much more to think about
Deadlines and commitments
What to leave in, what to leave out

Against the wind
I’m still runnin’ against the wind
Well I’m older now and still
Against the wind

Bob Seger – Against The Wind

As I listen to this song, so many times that I have, I reflect on a life to date. A life running against the wind brought about by my own mistakes. Blinded I have been by the glimmer of shiny objects, presented to us by the modern media. Shaken to the core by losing all I had gained, I fell prey to sadness and depression. Deep feelings of loss for possessions not worthy of pain. Money is the root of all evil they say, and I agree. Time for a change I say.

With each passing day I move closer to a time of letting go the feelings of hurt, forgetting and forgiving the Janey’s of my past and welcoming the wildfires of a future not yet fulfilled. I am still strong if not young, and I can still run against the wind.

Many friends have come and gone, some are forgotten and others missed. Some would say I’m alone but I say free. Each new person is a possibility, a chance at true friendship. Only asking what I give is a motto to live by, you must be true to receive in kind. I strive to attain all that is good, a willingness to come to grips with ones faults is the road to peace.

I lost my way for a time, engulfed by foolish trends and whims I traveled in the wrong direction. Further and further away from my home I roamed, but now returned. Drifting aimlessly now behind me, I have focus again. I search for a few true friends to share my life with, and attain a peace so long dreamed of. I’m older now seeking shelter from the wind, but I have the key.

 

8 thoughts on “Against The Wind

  1. Money is not the root of evil. The love of having more than you need is the evil. The other evil is not knowing you have what you need. I’m still learning that part.

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  2. Petits pas my friend, petits pas …. each little step taking you towards your goal already embraced in your heart. The pain of loss is a crushing weight to carry but as we move towards the life we know we need to live, free of fetters and chains, free to be who we are, as we do that so those we have loved ingrain deeper in our hearts and with each beat we hear them whisper encouragement because their love is what calls us on most strongly.

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