Forever Young

May God’s bless and keep you always
May your wishes all come true
May you always do for others
And let others do for you
May you build a ladder to the stars
And climb on every rung
May you stay
May you stay forever young

Forever young
Forever young
May you stay
Stay forever young

May you grow up to be righteous
May you grow up to be true
May you always know the truth
And see the lights surrounding you

May you always be courageous
Stand upright and be strong
May you stay
May you stay forever young

Forever young
Forever young
May you stay
Stay forever young

May your hands always be busy
May your feet always be swift
May you have a strong foundation
When the winds of changes shift

May your heart always be joyful
May your song always be sung
And may you stay
May you stay forever young

Forever young
Forever young
May you stay
May you stay forever young

Forever Young – Rod Stewart

The above picture is my father on the right followed by his father, mother, sister and a friend of theirs. My father was maybe 15 or 16 at that time. In 6 days it will be one year since my father passed away and I still feel his presence in my life.

Tears roll down my face as I write this because of how much I miss his silly stories, even if I had heard them a thousand times. The few times we really connected as father and son, the times he was there for me even when I didn’t notice, they eat away at me when I am alone. I know he loved me and I loved him, even if we were both bad at expressing it.  I can’t help but feel I let him down at the end with my selfish attitude, but it’s too late to change that. I know I need to let this guilt go for my own sake, but I’m not quite there yet. I think this lesson needs to be driven home so I won’t repeat the same mistake.

I have made it my mission to be true, to find my inner soul and follow the truth that lies there. Grasp the courage and will my father and mother instilled in me and be a person they would be proud of. This is my focus, my vision of the future. I will be a person worthy of the lessons they gave me, a reflection of the best the generation before me passed down.

I busy my hands with a future filled with beauty and kindness, a strong foundation brought forth with the lessons of those before me. The winds of change are reflected in the wisdom I see in a life devoted to the effects of staying young at heart. I wish to regain the strength of youth, the never ending joy of new adventures and the joyful embrace of all that is good in this world. I wish to stay forever young, even if only at heart.

 

 

 

5 thoughts on “Forever Young

  1. This is bound to be a very very tough time for you. A whole year has passed since your father left the earth to find his place wherever that is but certainly in your heart carried with you. Questioning, wondering, asking what-if is natural but it is also brutally painful. The fact is that you can’t fix the past but your Dad knew that you were fixing the future and he is right there, tucked in your heart calling you on to your dream which in turn is what will make him rest easy. Let the sorrow wash over you, let it wash away your guilt which is unfounded and unfixable, let the pain pierce your heart and let your heart keep beating strong and sure as you stride towards your dream, a dream that includes all the good things he gave to you in helping make the man you are. Sure, there are warts and scars but overall you are his boy and I guarantee you he is smiling warmly as he watches you – decent, kind, honorable, brave you. The you I am proud to call my friend and the you that he was proud to call his son.

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  2. My husband was sitting with tears running down his face the other evening because he suddenly thought of his Mum who died two years ago in January. Grief hits us and then the guilt but it is important to live in the moment. You really turned your life around and were there for your parents in their old age. My mum died 15 years ago and the grief/guilt has lessened and now its mostly happy memories. My mum was very young at heart and we really laughed together. K x

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