The Time Of Your Life

Another turning point
A fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist
Directs you where to go

So make the best of this test
And don’t ask why
It’s not a question,
But a lesson learned in time

It’s something unpredictable,
But in the end it’s right
I hope you had the time of your life

So take the photographs
And still-frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf
And good health and good time

Tattoo’s of memories
And dead skin on trial, go
For what it’s worth
It was worth all the while

It’s something unpredictable,
But in the end it’s right
I hope you had the time of your life

It’s something unpredictable,
But in the end it’s right
I hope you had the time of your life

It’s something unpredictable,
But in the end it’s right
I hope you had the time of your life

Time Of Your Life – Green Day

I remember driving on this highway many years ago thinking how much I was enjoying my life at that point. I owned my own truck, I was seeing more of this country than ever before, my folks were healthy and happy back in Maine, my dog Vinny was young and playful, I was on top of the world. So much has changed since then and I feel sad and lost at times, struggling to find the joy in my life.

With my fathers passing last year, and the recent loss of my dear friend, I am in a rut of sorts. I feel stuck in a never ending cycle of elation and dismay. On one hand I am buoyed by the thought of my future time on the sea, the freedom of life on a sailboat. On the other I see all the friends and family I have relied on for strength fading away into the past, lost for all time. Loss is a bitter pill to swallow, difficult in the extreme with an aftertaste of hurt. You are right Kerry, we are at the age that many of the things we hold dear are now being taken away from us.

So at what age, at what stage in life is the “Time of our lives” held apparent? Is it in the past when we were young or is it in the future when we have decided it has come to pass? I think it comes to pass when we decide what it is we actually want out of this short life, when we let go all the silly trivial ideals we held so close. Walking away from so many plans that fell through either by poor insight or foolhardy vision, standing firm in the belief that with age comes wisdom. Time and experience tells us what road to follow, what fork in the road to go down.

I think life is a test, the goal of which is to make the best use of the time we have, make an impression on the sands of time for all to see. My friend Linda did just that. In the short time I knew her she made an impression on my life that will stay with me forever. A lasting joy in my life that will serve as a goalpost of sorts that all future friendships will be measured by. I feel honored to have known her.

Fortunately for me I have another friend that measures up to the same standered. Even though we have not met face to face the true person shines through with each note, every thought conveyed over the vast web of cyberspace. As we continue to speak, and meet this summer, I draw from the well of goodwill an inner spirit that no hardship can diminish. We will prop each other up and bask in the sunshine of a mutual friend lost only to flesh not spirit.

If hindsight is 20/20, then what is foresight? A guess? It very may well be just that. I think we make a judgement call based on what we have learned and hope for the best. That is exactly what I am doing now with my pursuit of freedom on the sea. I am trying to leave all of my past behind, let go all of the regrets and sorrow of mistakes of the youth. With each cold and bitter day I come closer to a day that I hope will be the “Time of my life.”

 

 

 

7 thoughts on “The Time Of Your Life

  1. Oh boy, you only went and chose one of my favourite songs of ALL time. And you ponder the self-same questions that are haunting me just now and that the song lyrics draw into starker perspective for me. The latin phrase ‘Carpe Diem’ ‘seize the day’ has been taunting me this week. I have moments of deepest despair when I think of all those moments I missed and then I think that what Linda really really wants is for us to seize our lives, to honor her with doing the things we set out to. The simple dreams that we both aspire to achieving – not greed filled but just fulfilling the basic need we each have for freedom, living a truthful life, living a life full of days that let us rest well at night. She calls you on, John – that is what she wants, I am certain. And I remain your friend good and true and you mine and that is the great legacy she gave to us both. Go softly – this is the time of our lives

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  2. John, Linda and You buoyed each other up. She was excited for your retirement plans. There would be no better tribute to her than you to continue to rise up and not give in to despair.

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